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2008-03-11 04:17:57 by Athi

Yesterday I went to the park with a friend of mine and he told me that he had something he wanted to show me. I was curious, like I always am and followed him. Besides, I didn't think about his intentions much because he's my friend and I've known him for more than 7 years. I trusted that he'd be showing me something amazing, because he usually does so I fully took my cover down.

Than he suddenly held on to my hand and kissed me...

What is it with you. My friend for so long and he just kisses me like that.
I didn't know what to do and so I started crying. I don't know why, it just happened.
So he took me home and gave me a letter with my name on it.

After he left I went to my room and cried on the bed... for quite some time. Than I opened the letter.
Inside was a poem...

My love is like an ocean
It goes down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty you want to keep.

My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send.

My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It's to you that I surrender.

I didn't know what to say or do. In the letter was also a tinny CD. I've never seen anything like it, but it somehow fit into my CD drive anyways. There was a song on it. It was my favorite song... he knew it because I told him... a long time before I even thought about him in any special way.
Today I called him and he said my name in a way he never said it before. I could hear him breath quite troubled and he said "I've liked you ever since I've met you...".

It's just too much for me. I'm quite insecure about relationships at this point and this just came to me with such a rush. I don't know what do do... I'm not sure if I like him as much as he likes me... I don't want to hurt him either thought... This feeling is the worst!

I'm lost...


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The-Red-JackThe-Red-Jack

2008-03-11 04:24:11

Ask him if he is serious, if he is then think on what you feel, If you love him, well.... why not?

Athi responds:

If he is serious, and we get together, but break up after a while.
Than we won't be friends anymore... I don't want that to happen :(


Kloud11Kloud11

2008-03-11 05:22:31

Keep your chin up and expect guys to be random. We are an odd bunch. Hope things work out for the best lady!

Athi responds:

Thanks <3


CyberdevilCyberdevil

2008-03-11 08:00:28

How troublesome. :P

Just think about your own feelings, not his, if you've been friends in 7 years you should know him pretty well, right? Regardless of what you decide it won't be the same as before, hope it turns out good though.

Athi responds:

Yeah, I know. But he's a good friend. I want to go back to being "friends"...
Why does life have to be so difficult T_T


squeakytoadsqueakytoad

2008-03-24 10:02:25

The "friend zone". Poor guy.

You have to look at your situation though. I mean, you're probably finishing high school sometime soon (as is he). So you're both probably headed off towards completely different futures.
Also, high school relationships don't usually work out, and are more of a fun/growing experience than something serious.
Therefore I usually think it's silly when kids who have been friends for an exceptionally long time play the dating game all of a sudden. Yeah, there may be "feelings" there, but really now, after high school, everyone realizes they had no idea what was going on and what a real relationship is.
Too many people screw themselves up by taking high school "relationships" too seriously.

Ultimately though, drama doesn't help. Have fun, do what you feel like (as long as it's the right thing to do of course). Life speeds by fast, and you don't want to miss what could've been great.
It's just cheesy to profess your "undying love for each other", and going around acting as if you're getting married and you're an exclusive couple who goes everywhere together is just a tight little box that keeps getting tighter. And after the whole thing is over you'll feel really silly for taking it so seriously.

The above commenter, when he said "I can relate with this guy" means that he's been in the same situation before. Most guys have. As I said earlier, it's the "friend zone" that many guys want to get out of, but the girl wants to remain in.

Good luck, Athi. Hope things go well for you.


chris-the-stick2chris-the-stick2

2008-03-29 20:10:28

hey discuss it with him, and see if you want to go ahead with this guy. if yes, go on, and get to a relationship (as long as you feel fine). but if not, well.. in thsi case, just.. err try to tell him that you cant have a relation ship right now. and that you could feel bad if yo uwould be teared apart by getting in a relationship, since you have been out of an older that is, (as i know) and you acnt get over it. (i feel very sorry about that). however, it may be the tiem to move on, and look out for something new, no matter hwo crule that might looks. you need to search for love. we all need to :(